I'm a woman who does life with a chronic disease - I've had a mosquito borne virus and cancer and two complicated pregnancies. I have experienced the depths of grief and despair in multiple seasons. I have had physical pain that others cannot imagine. I've raised a medically fragile baby. I have a special needs daughter. Yet (wait for it)... I'm spiritually well.
A few weeks ago, I mentioned to my mentor/sponsor that I felt like the Lord was calling me to take a few days off from really real life. Being a mother is my heart and soul. Yet, to my Maker, I am immeasurably more than a mother. He calls me beautiful on my worst days. Which makes me wonder, what does He call me on my best? (Wink. I think it's just "still" His.)
Over the last 33 years, I have had a plethora of life experiences that have led me closer and closer in my walk with the Lord. One of the greatest? Yoga.
This is our time third meeting around the book Hope in the Dark. To find the first two blog posts, click here. Love the one you're with. As a mother, father, caregiver, spouse - do you ever feel like you struggle with this? Me too. Yet living with chronic disease continually reminds me of how fragile … Continue reading For God So Loved the World
I prayed and prayed, and often heard what I wanted - but I didn't really listen. Because God is a God of love and people. And when I returned to work part-time in 2017 (just prior to Melanoma) I was acting out of love... but not for all of His people. Truthfully, I was escaping our Wild - who does life with a severe anxiety disorder and struggles with sensory processing and who can rage in the blink of an eye... and I was tired.
I'm a believer to my core. I say that I found Jesus before I knew he existed; a calming presence in the middle of storms that came upon me long before my path today. Yet, I too have struggled with doubts. My biggest came when I saw my business go up in smoke as chronic disease met special parenting. I didn't quit on my business or my God. But let's just say that fear took the reigns. I feared that I would never see my business prosper again. And I feared that my God's plans for me weren't all that good. That maybe my suffering was attached to His greater plan. That maybe staying faithful without my health or my child's sanity was more than just a test - but my life's work.
The next time someone does something for you - whether it's big or small - I hope you'll smile and say thanks. And let that be it. We don't need to return every favor or apologize for taking up space. We can accept goodness and favor and blessings abundant - and from this space pour out into the world.
After months of deliberate thought about what I want to share and how I might share it, The Barefoot Preacher Blog is officially live! I'm excited about this, and what it might have to offer those on similar paths. The Lord has gifted me with an abundance of life experience, and the resolve to be … Continue reading The Journey Begins
A flashback to our Bliss at three. Oh, how I thought I would know how to handle this age after our sweet Mild turned wild for a year. But nothing can prepare you for life with a child who has challenges with her mental and behavioral health. Cheers to the differently wired, sweet girl. You've been inspiring me since birth!
Take a gander at what you've plotted for 2019. Now, ask yourself just one question: Does it match with what I value?