No one can prepare you for the highs and lows of motherhood, fatherhood, parenting or caregiving. But for me, this one verse, has again and again come to my heart. Seek the Lord. Seek Him at 2 a.m. when the baby won't stop crying. Seek Him at 3 p.m. when the toddler is rolling across the grocery aisle floor because you forgot to bring him or her home for their afternoon nap. Seek the Lord when you're sick and tired... and sick and tired of being sick and tired. I feel like if we just do this one thing, it's all going to be okay. Because you can see Him in small moments. And in seeing Him... perhaps you'll take pause and savor whichever season you're in.
Today I'm trying my hand at poetry. We'll see if I can convey the joy I'm experiencing. I pray I can. Blessings, sweet friends xox J. I see Jesus In the sunrise No child in my bed For perhaps The first time In a decade. I see Jesus In the bath time When I can … Continue reading Where I See Jesus
Hey beautiful friends! Welcome to the adventure. I am so incredibly honored to explore life with (and speak life into) you! My prayer is that this is another post full of exploration tinged with hope. A few years ago, I wrote about bed rest with my Wild one. I was 31 weeks gestation when early … Continue reading She Is Stable
A few weeks ago, I mentioned to my mentor/sponsor that I felt like the Lord was calling me to take a few days off from really real life. Being a mother is my heart and soul. Yet, to my Maker, I am immeasurably more than a mother. He calls me beautiful on my worst days. Which makes me wonder, what does He call me on my best? (Wink. I think it's just "still" His.)
Over the last 33 years, I have had a plethora of life experiences that have led me closer and closer in my walk with the Lord. One of the greatest? Yoga.
This is our time third meeting around the book Hope in the Dark. To find the first two blog posts, click here. Love the one you're with. As a mother, father, caregiver, spouse - do you ever feel like you struggle with this? Me too. Yet living with chronic disease continually reminds me of how fragile … Continue reading For God So Loved the World
I prayed and prayed, and often heard what I wanted - but I didn't really listen. Because God is a God of love and people. And when I returned to work part-time in 2017 (just prior to Melanoma) I was acting out of love... but not for all of His people. Truthfully, I was escaping our Wild - who does life with a severe anxiety disorder and struggles with sensory processing and who can rage in the blink of an eye... and I was tired.
I'm a believer to my core. I say that I found Jesus before I knew he existed; a calming presence in the middle of storms that came upon me long before my path today. Yet, I too have struggled with doubts. My biggest came when I saw my business go up in smoke as chronic disease met special parenting. I didn't quit on my business or my God. But let's just say that fear took the reigns. I feared that I would never see my business prosper again. And I feared that my God's plans for me weren't all that good. That maybe my suffering was attached to His greater plan. That maybe staying faithful without my health or my child's sanity was more than just a test - but my life's work.