It’s fascinating to me that once we begin writing about something – researching it – we see it in all different spaces.
Last week, I wrote a post called New Year, New Values?. And this morning, being a mother of a Wild, I found myself not acting upon my values. I felt harried. Two kids in two different schools need to both make it on time, but drop off numero uno (Wild) is delayed. She’s lost in thought. She is often lost in thought – and though we are on our knees praising so big that these thoughts are not intrusive or violent in nature (as was the case before we found the right course of treatment for harm OCD) – I get frustrated that even now, in healing there are struggles.
Reminders that this is not our earthly home are abundant around here!
Back to values. I wasn’t acting on mine this morning. I found myself agitated on the inside, even as Wild cracked jokes. Rushed. Oh, and tired. It’s one thing to dress yourself. It’s another to fully bathe, brush, dress, and feed another human being with the attention span of a flea at a dog parade (I hope that’s a fun visual for you!). I believe I reigned her back into the bathroom no less than five times this morning.
So how funny is it that as I finish listening to my podcast after dropping off the Wild (only ten minutes late somehow!) and the Mild (right on time, thank you Jesus), Andy Stanley is talking about what we want – our desires – as being a source of conflict. Why is what we want a source of conflict? Because what we really want doesn’t align with what we want in this moment.
“You will never know what you really want until you know what you really value.” – Andy Stanley
(you can listen to the full podcast here; it was gold.)
What we really want matches with what we really value. If you’re not sure what your values are, by the way, you can click on that article above for some guidance. For me, I know what I value. At my core is peace and presence. What I wanted this morning was timeliness. But what I really want? Well, that’s an incredibly joyful, intentional relationship with my miracle kids. This matches up with what I really value.
While I didn’t “get” what I really wanted this morning, I do have this afternoon (and the rest of their precious lives) to change the game.
Thank you Lord for mercies anew every single day!
And thank you friends for being here. It’s an honor to share real life.